Newcomer?

Newcomer came in the life of my most beloved person, he is so okay with me, but he said me and him want to fuck her in the multi chat and I was like WTF?
even she was there, I'm kinda weird person..well that's maybe because tonight are stars falling from sky, I mean it for real the tears of (Perseids Meteor Rain) st. Lawrence. But she don't see it, even If I said "I'm ready to give my soul for someone pure & true, someone like you " this kinda doesn't make any sense, that's my painful side, everyone cares too much for me , but I don't care for them, and when they stop I feel sad, but I want to return everything to everyone, sometimes Am asking my self , how many different people on the world is? Here some stupid survey, I mean different color, different minds, different look, I mean look some of us work to pay bills, some of us work to survive, some of us work to feed their families, and some of us work for just us?
Will we have anyone witch we can love?
I have done one survey, and it was about on what people are spending time, a very long but interesting one, I mean I never had someone like my blog spot, to write my stories, my mistakes, someone witch I share all, will anyone ever understand me?
There is so much people on the world, but I have couple friends I can BELIEVE, but believe and understand isn't same thing, I want someone I can believe and someone who will understand me? I sounds like , I don't know like what ...
But see, I just feel sad about newcomer and that's all..
enough of me for now, I just love writing here, see you